1. Never trust a cop in a raincoat.
2. Beware of enthusiasm and love: each is temporary and quick to sway.
3. If asked if you care about the worlds problems, look deep into the eyes of he who asks, he will not ask again.
4&5. Never give your real name, and if ever told to look at yourself, never look.
6. Never say or do anything that the person in front of you cannot understand.
7. Never create anything. It will be misinterpreted. It will chain you and follow you for the rest of your life, and it will never change

"we were meant to lose people, that's the only way we know how important they are"

My New Years Resolutions, which I fully intend to actually carry out this year are as follows:

1. NO junk food. No fast food either!
2. Begin to train for April 2010 triathalon to celebrate my grandpa's 80th birthday
3. Get back into tennis/shape
4. Join Amnesty International at school
5. Get at least a 3.7 next semester
6. Feel happier about myself/ have more confidence in myself
7. Smoke way less weed
8. Get another job
9. Spend less time on things that don't matter
10. Do something important in the Armenian community

"And you are my center when I spin away"
-Radiohead

Have not updated in awhile. A lot has happened:
-I finished my first semester with a 3.5 GPA
-The same boy of interest and I have walked around in circles pretty much, despite the fact that we slept together. I am keeping my distance while attempting to remain friends. I still like him a lot, but trying not to so much, he is all over the place.
-I recently became obsessed with Twilight, I know, fuck my life. It's embarrassing, but surprisingly glorious.
-Even though I didn't do as well in school as I liked, I still got an offer to publish an essay of mine about teenage sexuality and birth control in a yearly publication of student essays.
-My roommate was raped in October. It was a horrific mess and it is still yet to all unravel.
-I guess that's it?

Now, time for me to list all the things I got for Christmas!
-Beautiful brown leather jacket from Madewell
-Some shirts from Anthropologie, Urban, Free People, Lucky, etc. A lot of clothes.
-Twilight (fuck my life)
-The Unbearable Lightness of Meaning
-Headphones
-iTunes giftcards
-$310 worth of mall giftcertificates
-North Face gloves, finally!
-glorious lotion
-Six Feet Under season one!!!
-yoga pants
-lip balm
-facial gift certificate
-MAC eyeliner (coffee, my number of eyeliners is starting to become ridiculous)

twas a good christmas

"You're going away, and I'm feeling the same thing day after day, I can't let it go"
-The Submarines

More and more and more realizations! uughhh.

Today was okay. I had a hard time waking up at 8.
First I had Cultural Anthropology, we discussed agriculture and we're going on a field trip to a local farm tomorrow.

Then I went to Comp and it was actually not as boring as it usually is. We only took a few notes and then we watched a bunch of ads online. Jesse sat in front of me and kept talking to me and looking me in the eyes? UUUUGGHHHHHH MY LIFE.

After lunch I had psych, which was really boring and confusing as usual....that class is unnecessarily difficult.

Afterwards when I got back I had a long talk with my roomies about life. Before I could even mention Jesse they all said that we are destined to marry each other....weird. They think we are hte perfect couple and that we both love each other and just don't know it yet. They think he really likes me...it's a very weird situation. It's definite that I have feelings for him, but I"m not going to act on them at all unless he gives me a reason to....otherwise I'm not going to risk our friendship being awkward and ruined again.

After I went to Spanish conversation hour I went to HAS with the roomies, saw Jesse and he talked to me a lot more than usual. He came over and talked for a little bit, which is strange for him because he usually ignores the shit out of our lives when he's near the swim team. I really want to know what all of this means...probably nothing at all....fuck my life.

Afterwards me maddie and ashley hung out with the mikes and ekin. Ekin bought us some liqour and we walked around town and now I'm back at my dorm taking it easy tonight and getting caught up on some serious work.

I really wish I could get a handle on my life, I would be able to sleep much easier and get much more work done....::sigh::